Phil Wanzer

December 30, 2018 at 8:48 AM ·

Everything is strange...I thought about ending this post right there, but that wouldn't be fair to you as a reader now would it? You would ask what am I feeling? You mean like "feelings" I would say to Cathie, you mean you want me to say how I'm really feeling? It is a tough one for some of us. If you were to enter my thoughts, it would be a nightmare for you I"m sure, a mixed up mess of thoughts and ideas. I asked a doc one time, why do things enter your thought process, that totally goes against everything you stand for. It can be a horrible place in your head for a brief second. Most of these moments you may never tell another human being. An example is you love deeply you the person you are with and you are standing on the edge of a cliff. Suddenly a random thought enters and you want to push them over the edge. You would never do that and I know by revealing that, nobody is going to stand by me on a cliff in the future. You may not be cursed with this influx of thoughts, at random times, so you don't have a clue what I'm talking about. We are all on this edge, teetering. Insanity is just a strong wind away, to knock you over, it is from the other side these random thoughts come from, just let them be, don't pay much heed to them...

Sometimes I compare my life to a video game, it is how I drive my car, it is me against everybody else, I plan moves well in advance. Soon I must drive to the grocery store. When I started this post I was just going to say, Everything is strange. So I will go through the motions at the store and get it done, and I bet I will have a good time talking to whoever will listen. But deep down inside, I'm like a scared rabbit, ready to bolt at any moment. It is just a confused mess, but through it all, I know most of the time I'm not bored. My boss voiced his concern of all this time off, I'm worried I may get bored. Birdhouses saved me from that, but if it weren't houses, it would have been something else. Well, I'm going to put on some decent clothes, face the world, only if for a brief moment, I have 5 houses left, then cleaning the shop up. I have plenty of short pieces of wood, maybe a prototype bee house is next. Y'all have a good day, Peace, you know like, Peace! Brother, Peace! Sister, do you remember how that used to be? Love and a Happy New Year to all!